She is being fed the impression that I am nothing more than a room mate that he doesn't completely hate. *smile* She of course, being what she is, wouldn't be satisfied with that. She wants me out... and preferably with a toe tag, if she had her way. *smirk*
She'd have a cow that we even sit and watch tv together. He told me that he told her, that I basically stay "up stairs" and we don't interact other than for "business".
She has NO idea. None. The diff is I KNOW he lies. She still has NO idea just how much interaction we had during her so called fairy tail relationship with him during her pregnancy. She let it slip during my "invasion". "I had no idea you two were even talking to one another back then."
Could I ever open HER eyes. I know where H's skeletons are buried. Both from back then... AND now.
Incidentally, a convo with my T this week: The lies he's capable makes me very leery of him as a partner at all. Is this man trustable, at all anymore? To be honest, I don't know. I know the man he was, I know the man he can be, I know the man he isn't when she's not in his life. But... I ALSO know the deception he seems to do with zero thought, or remorse. Gallons of it. That... is one of my HUGE red flags. One of the other reasons he has to hit bottom. And if I'm being totally honest, although I love him, I also know that his ability to be that deceitful and seeing it happen with my own eyes TO me, and to others,... really fed into my inability to trust him when we got back together the first time. Now?... I dunno, I don't know if he is capable of not falling into that. It's like a drunk. Unless and until he realizes and accepts and acknowledges that he has a huge problem with this... I can't see us successfully together.
I DO have criteria for what I want/need. It's also a reason why I want my own place. Maybe this time, without the depression, I'll have enough space in my head to just close the door, because the picture is one I simply will NOT want in my life.
Abbey
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
