Sorry you are having a rough time Autumn. From reading your posts you are very aware logically what is going on and what you can do about it but of course putting that into action with our emotions running crazy is the hard part. Since going down my road or my roller coaster I do my best not to have any expectations, good or bad, and just let things unfold as they will. Again, easier said than done.
Thanks for sharing as I think you were the straw that is going to get me to set up a coaching call. I'm in a tough position financially but I think it's too important not to get some expert advice.
I took Paxil once for about three days. I couldn't wake up. But, hey, when you're asleep all the time, you're not sad, right? I stopped.
A pet peeve of mine is when people use their fb status' to be "too personal". Coincidentally, this am a friend of mine has a status pic that he shared... It says...
"Dear Users: If you want to cry, use your tissue, not your fb status. Thanks. Facebook"
I work from home on a computer all day, and tend to take quick "breaks" on FB and the DB (now that I've met you here!) and MA boards. So, I have time to post a lot. I wouldn't ever think of posting anything personal. Ick.
Funny, too... I have a saying for some people. "I just can't get past the weather w/them" (And, I'm a TALKER!)
Hopefully, that will pass soon. When I was in the depths of my sitch, I remember being almost paralyzed in conversation... not sure that I had anything to share, not wanting to reveal my sadness, and just wanting to wallow away in my own sadness/misery. Maybe I should have gone for AD's!
It gets better, my friend!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
At some point the good days will outnumber the bad. You're just not there yet. Work on yourself everyday, even on days you don't really feel like it do something small. With time you'll start thinking: "He doesn't deserve a woman like me!"
About the coal, maybe it simply means if coal is so expensive he may get something other than coal.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
SIAS, so glad you are considering calling a DB coach. I know you won't regret it. I am so glad that I did. It really does make a difference, and helped me to see things a bit differently.
labug, you are so right. Some days are tougher than others but after I do something for me, I almost always feel better.
mindfull, I love that status update about the tissues, very appropriate. I can't believe the things that people will write sometimes, way too personal.
Had my first appt this morning and he was very helpful. Put me on AD and wants to see me in a few weeks. He was glad to hear that I was talking to IC. He has treated my whole family for years and was surprised about my current sitch. Looked sad when I was telling him.
This afternoon I have another doc appt to handle some medical issues that have popped up, when it rains it pours. But its important to take care of me. I am thankful to have insurance right now.
So this morning as I was getting ready for my day, H asked me to come into the bedroom to talk outside of the kids earshot. He asked if he could come to doc with me. He apologized for being so unapproachable lately. I thanked him for the offer but I prefer to go alone. He asked me to call him to let him know how it went.
I'm feeling slightly uneasy, and really can't wait for the AD to kick in, he said 2-3 weeks.
Taking the boys to the HS basketball game tonight, but plan to get in a walk at some point. Some clear my head time, if possible
Yes, medical issues seem to crop up with our situations. I started having PVS (heart palpitations) after the Bomb. My IC said, "Isn't it interesting that your physical symptoms are matching your emotional heart break."
Take care of yourself.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
LABUG - Hi! I've seen some of your posts elsewhere, too... You're a wise woman! I ended up having to have a cardiac ablation due to the whole situation. I literally feel your pain!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
That is interesting that we all have Wow! I actually discovered a lump and my ob/gyn sent me for imaging this morning after she examined me yesterday. The radiologist sees something in my mammogram but couldn't find it in the ultrasound. He is sending the images to my doctor to review and they will be referring me to a surgeon. We will determine what we are dealing with at that time. I am relieved that everyone has been wonderful, and keeping it moving along quickly. The fact that they didn't see it on the ultrasound brings me some peace for now. Not worrying unnecessarily.
H asked to come with me today and I agreed. After we left the hospital we stopped for a bite to eat before heading back to work. While at lunch he mentioned that he was tired of this, tired of focusing on negative and doesn't even know what the initial trigger was because its been going on so long. I just listened and nodded.
He said I don't want to focus on the negative anymore, we have so many blessings in our lives. Let's try to Christmas and focus on the blessings. I promise to try to bring things to your attention and communicate better going forward.
I didn't say much other than nodding, and listening. I am on overload with all of the medical tests, and wanted to just think more.
