I appreciate that. It was the closest that I'd been to her, proximity wise, in over 2 years. It was tough, but I'm glad I did it. I've had some struggles recently after finding out about her new 'soulmate' because I still felt an emotional connection to her, and I'm trying to overcome that. We've had about 6 months of pleasant texts between us prior to her getting involved in a committed relationship. But after being in court the other day, I no longer saw her as a superhero, an angel, or a princess who could do no wrong and hung the moon! In other words...I took down the bronze statue of her that I had placed on a golden pedestal in my mind. I still feel bad that I treated her like I did during the marriage, but my behavior truly was reflective of how I felt about myself instead of how I felt about her. But she was still on the receiving end. I know that God has forgiven me, and after 3 years of beating myself up so bad I was truly able to forgive myself too. She doesn't forgive me to this day. I am now at peace with God regarding the past. I'd like to be at peace with the past itself.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
