I just don't get why I am being pushed like this. I am not without fault in this matter, but nothing I've done necessitates this as a response.
I had all of those same feelings Crimson. I couldn't understand it, as hard as I tried. I finally just had to accept it. She went after my carotid artery, knowing that I didn't want the marriage to end...knowing that I was sorry and remorseful for my wrongdoings. I was more hurt than anything else. She was pissed and she used that anger to motivate her to do all of the things she did (and a lot of that was pretty bad stuff). She used her anger at me as a tool to help her leave, and do everything else that she's done since then. I should have had some anger at the vindictive things that she did to me through the legal system...but I never did. I just had hurt. It was just bad [censored] that I had to go through. And trying to get in her head and understand why she was doing these things got me nowhere...nowhere! I know a helluva lot more now than I did then. I'm sorry for ya'...I understand...and I can relate completely to what you're dealing with.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
