It's okay Antonia. I totally get where you are coming from. It's really hard to read some of the posts on the forum and not get emotional. I appreciate your input. Even when I don't agree with others, everyone gives me something to think about.
H went to church to talk to Fr. again. He came home feeling very happy and I was happy to see H in a good place. I'm starting to see some changes in H, but part of me doesn't want to accept that they are real. These changes have been positive.
He has been more attentive, more focused, and happier. I just think the fear comes from waiting for the other shoe to drop. H and I were talking about that and he says he totally understands how I'm feeling right now and wants to work through this with me.
Packed more boxes and moved them to storage...
I felt somewhat shakey, emotionally today but for the most part, I'm OK.
