I spent all night with XW..........on the phone

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone. It has been awhile since I have posted. Not much new in sitch with XW. We don't talk. She sent a text the other day and I did not respond. I don't respond much at all anymore unless absolutely necessary.

I do have a question though:

If "going dark" is for me to be able to handle this better, isn't it also going to make it easier on her?

I've dated a few women, but none of them compare to my X.

All I've thought about for some reason the last few days is how things were when we were so much younger. Not sure why...

I also think it is sad how much she is missing out on. She has no idea that S17 wants to go to the police academy when he is done with high school and has no idea that S19 proposed to his girlfriend last February. It really makes me feel bad for her.

As for me, I've been working a lot of hours, I've deleted my "radio" FB page and found out today that I got the townhouse that I wanted. I will move in the middle of January.

I'm doing much better "most" days, but man do I miss her.

Thanks for all you do.....

Tad