Never thought I'd be here......part 2

[antlers]

You can't 'handle' your wife right now. Understand that. The only control you have is over you. Exercise the control you DO have, and that's over you, your actions, and your reactions. Ask God to give you strength, guidance, and determination...determination to survive whatever happens. You need to drop that rope...it's tied to a 747 on the other end and you can not stop it. Let the rope go, and take care of Crimson. This is very adversarial...that's what often happens. It's a war. She knows you don't want this, believe me. So don't beg, plead, or do any of that other crap that makes them despise you. It's hard man, it hurts, but it's as real as anything you'll ever deal with in life. Do your best, and don't assume anything. Put forth effort to be stronger now than you've ever been. Don't lash out. When you see her, try to NOT think about what she is doing TO you. You have to get to the point where you value and respect yourself enough to let go of people who don't value or respect you.