Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Right, which is now where I am floundering...I feel like I'm done with H but it's horrible timing to feel this way with the holidays, etc. He's acting very nice towards me...but his actions are terrible.

H keeps asking how I'm doing and I have been saying I'm fine or I'm great. I want to tell him the truth...but so frustrating that I'm not sure it will get through at all. I really don't think he cares about my feelings (or, he cares on some weird level...but doesn't care enough to react or change his behavior)

I guess maybe I keep up the "pleasant" attitude but allow some of my newfound "ready to be done" attitude to show through a bit. I also am not sure H understands that if I file for separation or require him to move out of the house...he may actually need to be home for more than 1-2 days at a time in January to deal with that? To tell the kids?

UGH!!!!!!!!!!