Hi Purgatory. Welcome. It's never too late to DB. You've come to the right place. Lots of supportive folks here who are going through similar situations.

I concur with brenalim. Keep the focus of your changes on yourself, not because you want H to notice them and change his mind. Both you and H have your own journeys. You can only control your own.

Focus on becoming stronger without depending on H to make you feel better/worse about yourself. Once you become stronger, you will gain the mental clarity and endurance you need to DB effectively.

Re: The dating promises, etc. Don't believe everything H says. My H said a lot of things (including promising not to date evne while having an affair I was unaware of) that he didn't mean. Sometimes it's because they don't want to "hurt" you, other times they are trying to cover their tracks and don't want to raise your suspicions. So there can be a OW in the picture even if you currently do not find any evidence for it. It may be an EA or a PA. Regardless, it doesn't matter. Don't worry about OW. The more you pressure and ask about OW, the more he will go underground with her if there is one.

So again, focus on you and on what is under your control. Continue to be kind and caring (without being clingy or needy), but expect nothing in return.

Hang in there. We're all in the same boat.


M:12yr
06/11:IDLYA
07/11:Moves out
08/11:PA disc(began in May)
09/11:Moves w OW
10/11:Breaks up w OW;gets apt
11&12/11: Touchngo w me
1/12: Comes home-PA resumes
2/12: PA disc; PA ends
Today: Piecing