At some point the good days will outnumber the bad. You're just not there yet. Work on yourself everyday, even on days you don't really feel like it do something small. With time you'll start thinking: "He doesn't deserve a woman like me!"
About the coal, maybe it simply means if coal is so expensive he may get something other than coal.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
