I hear you loud and clear, antlers. The problem is I have not arrived at the point where I don't care if my M works out. Granted, I know that I will live either way - but from the depth of my living soul I am hopeful that it works out over time. I get the feeling that you almost need to detach to the point of ambivalence. I'm striving to get there, but since I still get shook up when I see her I probably am not there just yet.
Crimson
Crimson - I know you probably feel like you're walking through hell alone right now but you are not alone. Its does miraculously get easier, all the while not meaning that you don't love your W anymore, nor that there won't be moments of intense pain.
I woke up yesterday wanting to destroy the OM (I mean plumb nasty mean - Josey Wales). I meditated, thought through my DB plan, and prayed, and somehow got to a better place as the day went on. It actually ended up being a great day. Step by step my friend. You're getting stronger and evolving each moment. That's the gift (believe it or not) of this sitch.
