Ultramarathon continues...was there a detour?

[jbnati]

Today I got up and ran three miles.

Since I was up late the night before, I got to work much later than I wanted to. I failed to look at my calendar and ended up missing a conference call. I also found out the dog had chewed on some of the Christmas lights on the tree. Just something to deal with. I also found out today I missed a pack meeting for my S's Cub Scouts last night. I felt bad about that. I was just way out of sorts earlier in the day.

I ended up taking a time out today and talked through / caught up on my situation for awhile with a female friend at work. I have been very open about my situation and have gotten a ton of support. This particular friend is married. Just helps to get it out every now and then.

I didn't see my W today when she came to pick up my S. She texted me to let me know she had already picked up my S. I ended up calling her. It turned out to be a pleasant conversation. She had called me earlier, but not left a message. It turned out she failed to tell me about the Cub Scout pack meeting so I felt like at least I didn't drop the ball on that one.

Tonight to GAL, I was actually double-booked. I could either meet with the Men's group or the Relationships (a.k.a. Ladies') group. I opted for the latter. We met at one of the lady's houses. We had a very nice time. More support. We all prayed together when we were there.

The ambivalence about my situation re-surged later on tonight when I was driving to my group. I just feel like better things are in my future, whether it's with my W or not. Right now, my W would have a whole lot of convincing to do if she wanted to come back. I would certainly be willing to work with her, but I absolutely can't return to the old M. No way.