W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore.

[Snowman]

Well, I ended up taking my S to the doctor this evening and my wife joined me. She then got my sons prescription and joined us for dinner tonight along with playing with him, bathing him, and putting him down. It was weird to say the least.

We then talked about us which was weird. I let her talk as she is the one wanting to now. She said sorry for everything which is a very broad statement. I asked her why the change of heart and she said that her IC asked her what she would miss about me and at first she said nothing. Then she started to say some things that she would which were the good times that we had together and our family. She has the papers finished but didn't file because of this. I told her about how hard it would be for me to trust her again after all the water that has gone under the bridge. She said she knew there would have to be a lot of work done on building trust again. I said I assume she knew that I know what has happened and she said she doesn't know what I know. I asked her if now was appropriate to ask her about what she has done and she said no. I told her I knew a lot of what has happened but I would wait to discuss that later. I told her I felt like this is the 11 hour so to speak and I was ready to move on with my life and you now are wanting to do what I was asking all along. She said that she was so mad and couldn't see it all this time. I told her she has pushed away so many people and she has acknowledged that. I told her there have been a lot of tears shed for her by many and she said there has been by her as well even though you may not believe so. I told her there is not any cheerleaders on my side anymore as there really is not.

I said this is not the first round for us and this is really the 2nd round and I don't want to do another round. I said I would be willing to go to counseling to see where this goes. She then was basically ready to leave. She said thank you for hanging out and letting her come over. I agreed to go see the Christmas lights with her on Thursday. I texted her after she left as to what counselor we would go to and said I don't care I haven't looked into one. I then called her as I thought she was upset or something but she was just stated she hadn't looked. I mentioned the one that my BIL and sister went to. She said we could go there. I guess we will see. I will send her the info so she can set it up. She didn't seem that committed to working on this even as the cheater but I guess we will see.

My question to others is how can you trust again. How can you not constantly worry about them or have a lurking trust problem in the person?