WAW told me she idoesn't want to be married.

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Thanks Rick. I am focusing on me it is when I am by myself and with my own thoughts that is bad. Last week I was ok with what was going on. Now its more surreal. Yesterday when we left my sons school I could tell by her looking at me that she wanted to talk instead she wanted to email me. She can't look me in the eye and have a conversation with me. Its the guilt of being with OM.
I am going through DR right now and up to the infidelity part. I know I can move on. I know if we reconcile it will also be hard. This is a very hard fought road to travel on for all of us that are here going through it in his/her own way. I just would like the chance to give my kids a normal home . Raised by 2 loving parents. If givin the chance that is what I want. If it is ment to be then it is ment to be. If not then we will stay friends. We are in each others life for the rest of our lives, not just till kids turn 18.