Has anyone ever recovered from a sitch this bad?

[gonnawinherback]

Lost in court today. Judge (actually a commissioner in this county) said that switching the parenting plan will be too disruptive. Apparently uprooting the kids from the only home they have ever known and into a house with what is essentially a stranger isn't too disruptive. Had an aquaintence in court on his own matter, told me I was brilliant (representing myself for financial reasons) and simple couldn't understand the judge's order. Wouldn't even give me a guardian ad litem!?

I know this stuff isn't really DB related, but I am absolutely despondent. I've done everything the court has asked and I can't get another minute of time with my kids. The W seems to be able to do what she wishes without consequence. I've lost the desire to even think about DB, just want to do whatever it takes to beat her now.

I just don't understand that in this country, a loving father can lose access to his kids for 90% of the time just because of gender, and the courts are completely complicit in it. It's like living in a third world country.