So I'm going to move on over to here seeing as I'm really piecing now. I saw 25 had written elsewhere that you never really stop piecing.... that your M should always be evolving... or something along those lines.
I feel like H and I are doing a lot better communicating, but there are still times and days where I am frustrated with him. At least I'm not having nightmares anymore. And at least most of the bad thoughts are gone.
But last night, for example, he went out to pick up a gift he had shipped to Best Buy. It took longer than he planned, and my phone was on silent (I hate it when I forget to turn it back up!). It was after about 2 hours that I thought, "oh my god, he's not coming back. He's flipped out again, and he's getting drunk at some bar and won't be back til 2 AM".
I talked myself on the ledge and continued doing housework. He came back at 10, with gift in hand, and another large purchase he made, explaining why he had taken so long.
I didn't tell him how I felt. I don't know if I should have.
We're still working through major personality differences (like, I'm a planner and scheduler, he's spontaneous and has no sense of time). I think that becoming parents has been great for our relationship though. I think we both find the other one being such a good parent really attractive. He's an amazing father. And he's told me he thinks I'm an amazing mother. And our child is, seriously, the happiest, most easy going baby I've ever encountered.
You ever feel like everything is going well, and you're just waiting for it to all fall apart? I kinda feel like that. Maybe it's just the stress from the holidays.
