I honestly believe that as long as we yearn for a relationship we aren't ready for one.
After Christmas I am going to learn tap dancing, as well as redo my garden [house is on-going project] I am also going to go out and do something new every week. I have had 4 surgeries in the past 18 months, [developed a great r with surgeon and staff though!] and am just getting back on my feet physically.
It is in my soul I feel a profound change. I am at ease with myself again. I don't mind being alone, don't feel the lack, the emptiness that I had been experiencing. And that wasn't simply lack of xh it was a disturbance in the Force, no doubt about it.
When I was married I was happy alone. It wasn't until my xh left that it became a burden, because I became a burden to myself.
I do have a lot of free time, but I love reading. Just finishing 'Aunt Julia and the Scriptwriter' by M V Llosa and in a different genre discovered Jo Nesbo.
