Ugh just got a horrible smack in the face, and having a hard time pulling it together.
There is a woman who has been a friend of ours for years, but always closer with him. They have jobs in common and interact between their companies.
When he went away for a company retreat a few months ago, she was there too among other people. Some brought their spouses but he was adamant that I couldn't go. "I never have anything for myself, and you just will never hear me"
So a few weeks ago when he accused me of flirting with a guy, and I mentioned that women friends text him too and dont' see how this is different. I then mentioned that one of them even went on the retreat. He was drinking at the time and his response was "and we are going on another one in Feb"
The next morning he was sorry, kissing me, hugging me and "we will talk later". We didn't
So just now she posted on fb and within 3 minutes he was responding, and it felt flirty. I don't know if it was really flirty or just because he doesn't respond to me on FB at all anymore. I don't know when its in my head or real. I need to not look at FB
I need to pull it together before he gets home. Thank goodness the kids are at the gym because I cant' stop crying.
How can someone who vowed to love you, make you cry so much. He told me a few weeks ago that he hates to see me sad (he doesn't anymore) and he wants his marriage. He still says ILY everyday. Can they say it and not mean it, i guess anything is possible.
