The Crazy Train

[AntoniaB]

AJ you just totally fed my ego with that comment. Stop that? Ha ha.

I agree with you about not wanting to be in a relationship until you know that you have something to give. I think that's really healthy.

The issue for me is not being sure if I have something to give or not. I mean, I seem to have a lot to give to my friends or family members. I seem to have a lot of availability for them emotionally/physically. I also know that I walk around my house doing nothing quite often, watching episodes of The Office (British version, that was this week's escapism...) or movies...staring out at my yard, reading book after book, some of which have nothing to do with my research but just for passing the time. And then I think, well, I could be doing something else. I could be hanging out with someone else.

Don't get me wrong, I ask women to socialize often. I asked 3 people to get together for dinner last week. I'm still waiting on them all to "check their schedules." Methinks I will not hear from them again, or if I do, it'll be the whole "Oh yeah, we need to get together soon."

So the point you raised for me, AJ, was how do you know when the time you're devoting to "nothing" in particular should be/could be something you could give to the right person?

I guess the only answer I can come up with is, "you'll know when the right person comes along", LOL :-)