Forward, slow as she goes

[BeingMe]

I have to agree with you, WCW. If my H was acting mean, or withholding finances, or detached from the children, then I would find it very easy to kick him out, file for D, and have nothing more to do with him. But, he is pleasant on the phone, lets me know when he'll be home, seems happy to be home, helps around the house, etc. I cannot fault him with that. It's only when we discuss our R when the MLCer pops his head into the picture. So, I am detaching ... sometimes I feel completely detached, other times not so much. I do miss being a real couple, but I wonder now, if we ever were. He hid so much that I wonder if I ever knew him. I keep questioning myself whether I would take him back now, but I don't think I can ... too much water under the bridge, and too long have I waited. I am willing to be friendly, not friends (I trust my friends), but pleasant. Like a family member ... some you trust, and some you don't, but you can't not be family.