I'm so sorry witz. I hear you on the time machine. I have thought something similar many times. If I could just go back to a few weeks before things turned, and do things differently. Unfortunately we can't, and we now have to focus on moving forward in a healthy direction, whatever that happens to be. It will be different for each and every one of us.
I'm sorry that your sitch took this turn. I hope someone who has been here longer will come in with some good advice for you.
