living in limbo

[learning2listen]

I had another great night with my kids..
I still think and hurt, but I am so blessed with my daughters.. each offering there own form of wisdom without even knowing it..

Life is fluid, ever changing.. how we look at it and mold with it forges the road ahead...

I am by no means giving up my H, but I am trying hour by hour to know that this is my time to breath... this is my time to dig deep inside me and find the strength to go on..

This has by far been the most painful few months.. but the reality is this is my reality..I can wallow, beg plead, throw guilt trips... but I am better than that...I have made mistakes, some out of my control and some just plain dumb... but I will not take one more minute forgranted. I will find my own peace. I get knocked down, the sorrow overwelms me at times, but I will get through this... this is my promise to myself. I will reread my good days when I start to backside.. I will look to the future as a gift.