You need to stop thinking about your spouse and start focusing on yourself. It's like taking a left turn to eventually go right. Feels weird, but I am committed to it at this point.
That's exactly right! And good for you for realizing that at this stage! And good for you for being committed to it! You must do what you described above regardless of whether or not things work out with the marriage. It is ALWAYS a great investment when you invest in yourself!!!
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.