The Crazy Train

[AntoniaB]

Very well said, Beatrice, very timely, and it sums up a lot.

For me, one of my greatest fears is that my XH is actually himself BETTER OFF without me...that he'll go on to live a fruitful happy life with OW, that he will marry her, get coerced into kids with her when he firmly was against ever having them along with me, that a whole lot of great things will happen as a result of him NOT being with me. And what's weird is that in many ways that has already happened with me...that there are ways I've been freer to deal with things on my own and become a happier, more integrated personw without him in my life. So all that comes down to, my fear, is my own ego being crushed.

If I could take my ego, put it in a box, and ship it to deep space, I think I would. It's the one thing that stands in my way :-)

Thanks for posting this; I have a feeling I'll be reading it often.