Hello. I don't post much anymore. I admire all those that share and you have all helped me so much...helped me to see this is beyond my control and to step away and detach. DivorceCare (mentioned here by a few) has been such a blessing to me too.
Yesterday I was looking through some things and a card kept coming into view. It had a scripture on it that I have decided needs to be my new motto:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5
I will probably never understand his choices...I know why it's happening but the things he's said...like "No one will ever love me just for me the way you did" and "We were a team. I'll never have that with anyone else again" and "Your're the most wonderful person I'll probably ever know" and he's marrying the OW in a month. He's running so fast and I feel like he's doing it to prove what he did to me was necessary for him to find happiness...to remove an unhappiness he never said he had until he dropped the bomb. There I go trying to understand again.
I trust that God has a plan for me...and I don't need to understand anyone else's choices but my own. I need to let go and let God.
