Where to next?

[mishka422]

The anxiety is building and it's making me a little crazy! Ok...a lot crazy! Shocker, I know!

My BFF is getting married next August. I am so very happy for her. She and her fiance have been dating for 8 years so it was about time they take this step. Of course, right after they got engaged their plans went off track a bit but they're trying to remedy that as quickly as possible. Financial stress.

That being said, since I had to quit Zumba and weight watchers to save money and since food is so darned expensive for healthy items I've put on 15 pounds! 15 pounds in 3 months!!!!!!! I feel so absolutely disgusting, I look like a complete she-beast and I'm miserable. There is just zero self-control and I have no idea what to do next. My anxiety over Christmas coming isn't helping and then to top it off I'm in her wedding and I just can't do it looking like this. So.....it's going to have to be something extreme but cheap.

I still have my gym membership but I haven't been going. I feel like such a blob that I'm scared that they will all be staring at me. Yes, I know, no one actually does but my sick mind won't let me get past that.

Food is a major issue for me. Always has been. The good, healthy foods I prefer to eat just cost more than than I can afford anymore. I find chicken breast on sale pretty often so that helps but fish, fresh vegetables and fruits are just so expensive! What would you guys suggest?