25 - First, I wanted to thank you for your post about Retrovaille. You provided exactly what I was looking for and I may still have some questions but will save them for another time and thread.

Second, your post above had me thinking about you and the time and effort you put into repairing your M. You have imparted a tremendous amount of wisdom, advice, caution and common sense to a lot of posters on this forum; some directly and others indirectly. I have been the beneficiary of both!

What has me thinking is your most current post about how "the more you write, the worse you feel, in part." The fact that you post so often and really dig deep into the threads of other posters in order to provide the best advice and perspective seems to really take its toll on you. Or, is it that you are simply referring to your idea about laying out your story in a new thread and that that task is what is weighing heavy on your mind?

Anyway, regardless of which it is, I have visions of you that remind me of the movie Ghost. The Patrick Swayze character learns how to enter the body of a living person in order to communicate with the person he loves. Except that when he does this, he expends so much energy that when he finally exits the body of the living person he is so drained of energy that he is practically immobile.

Is this how you are feeling? You give so much of yourself to others that you seem to be tearing open your own old wounds. Is that healthy?

So, I'm just interested in your thoughts on this.

Take care!


Me51 W53 S17 S14
M22 T25
Bomb-9/11; A-11/11; I move out 11/11

It's easy to find our bottom, it is our top that requires cultivation.

Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife