living in limbo

[learning2listen]

Spent a wonderful weekend with my kids..we put the Christmas tree up and did a little shopping.. it was so nice..these are the moments I treasure...

I heard next to nothing from my H, and I have come to realize this is his path..as adults we are responsible for our actions and the damage he is doing with me and the childern is his burden.

I do not understand his behavorior but i am getting better at accepting it and just living my life.. it by no means is easy and at times I want to crawl into a corner and suck my thumb..but I look at those 2 beautiful girls of mine and I know I need to be strong and show them happiness..

I have no idea what the future holds and this road will continue to be rocky but it doesnt need to be for them. THey need the security and love I give them.

Today I am ok, each hour I realize this more and more.