Peicing and hoping I'm doing the right thing.

[Abbey]

The PTSD is something I went through as well. Constantly feeling like the doom was around the corner. To this day, I still shake so badly sometimes, that I have to force myself to get up from bed and walk it off.

The emotional fight inside us is so strong that our body just has to do something with the energy... so it revolts.

As for wondering if etc. It's because there is still so much that is unresolved. I am now convinced more than ever, that unless and until the WAS makes total restitution and UNDERSTANDS what they did to you in full bold vibrant colors... it's only then that amends can be made, and the likelihood of it every happening again goes away.

The problem I think we make sometimes is that we're so worn down, so relieved to have them back, that we give in too easily and don't force them to do the work, because we ARE PTSD. Afraid to rock the boat because we know what it feels like to be abandoned and thrown away like garbage. It doesn't feel nice, and so our fear takes over and we become afraid of rocking the boat. It's the mistake I made, and I'm now paying for it.

Your audio book should be listed to by you first. Understand what the book is saying to you so that you have some ammo to utilize with your H to get to the next steps you need to make.

Cheers
Abbey