To answer your question, by the way, she did comment on the lack of decorations in the box I handed over. she e-mailed me this morning and said not to worry about it for this Christmas, but when I am taking stuff down just set hers aside. I know it's looking too far into the future, but that bummed me out thinking that we will STILL be at the place or worse next Christmas, too.
The initial point of her e-mail was to ask to change the exchange time for the baby this weekend because she is going to drive to LA (5-6 hours) to visit one of her friends. Actually, it's one of her friends that I really bonded with and miss in this process. She always wanted to make the drive out to see her, but between the baby and me not wanting to cram in a car for 6 hours I never wanted to. I guess she is using this as some time to get done some things she has wanted to do that maybe I made hard to accomplish. Paternal me wants to make sure her car is running OK, but it's brand new - that's probably why she is making the trip. I replied but didn't mention the trip at all.
Don't know why, but I am still kind of shaken from seeing her last night. Can't get her out of my head. Buying the car without me was a big deal I think, since I was always involved in that type of thing with her. That, paired with her trip, makes me want to believe that she is flourishing without me and happy to be alone. Again, I know I am thinking too much here.
