IB, You are grieving and each person grieves at this own pace and in their own way. You are going to have moments of sorrow and disconnection. You've come a long way and if you go back and re-read all of your postings from the beginning to now, you will see that you are stronger and have posted some beautiful and amazing postings to others.
Life is like a book. Each chapter is a portion of our lives. Your marriage and the life you had together is one chapter. When he left, he forced you to turn to the next chapter which began as a blank page. IB, you've been writing the new chapter for quite some time. You are growing by leaps and bounds and you are a woman of grace and far stronger than you think. You are the author of your life's story...do not allow him to have the power over you and take up space in your mind...that space is not for rent or sale...it is for you and your family.
Nothing is neat and orderly w/mlc. Just think...you have the world by its tail...go for it. What does he have? A mask, an ow and fun and games....that's it.
Did you make the wreath? How did it turn out?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
