Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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H is "back" from his trip with OW but still in her city. He went over to one of our friend's houses tonight and texted me pictures. It seemed obvious to me that he wanted me to know he was back from his trip. I was pleasant to him, but not overly responsive. He called and talked to the kids for about a half hour a bit later. At one point, he must have asked them "how is mommy" because our 4 year old ran in to ask me how I was and then ran back and told him my answer "great".

I just don't feel like initiating any contact with him. He doesn't want to tell me about his trip...so any conversation we have would be completely one-sided. He was asking the kids about our road trip...and they were very excited telling him about the hotel, shopping, etc...so that was good.

H also threw a couple things out in his texts tonight about our friends coming to visit us in March, and another friend wanting us to go into a real estate investment with him. I didn't respond to either text. I just don't feel like I can say we'll be together much longer. (especially if he thinks he can go on trips with OW without checking with me or making sure I am okay having the kids)

I think I remain "dim" and doing the LRT. He knows he is out in January at the rate he's going...this weekend has made me more comfortable with that. I'm also really tired of covering for him and I am so tired of all of his lies.

It'll be interesting to see if he notices the change in me.