IB,

I also think that you are truly amazing. I can't add anything that

hasn't been already said here. But, I want you to know that you are

not alone through this. I could post more on how similar it is with

my XW even as recent as an hour ago. I think we start to get a

little bit more on the OK side of things and then we get sucked

right back in the craziness. Each time though we learn a little

bit more and can handle it just a little better the next time

while knowing there will be a next time because this would not

be MLC if there wasn't a next time at this stage. These MLC

folks are going to cycle through all the stages back and forth,

left and right and we will go nuts ourselves if we try to plot

the course. When you think of what a mess that must be to them

I would take being a LBS any day of the week. Am I still

standing? I doubt it but my kids mean everything to me so it is

not going to be easy as long as the roller coaster keeps

operating and the man still lets me board the ride when I decide

to ride the ride. Why do I decide to ride? I think it is the

anger and hurt that I am still processing so I am assuming that

this is probably normal for what we have been through.

WS