Not much new to talk about. I haven't been checking in as much seems like the more I think about my sitch the worse I feel. Work has been crazy also which is good keeps me busy. H has been much nicer to me lately, he talks to me and even looks me in the eye. Shocking... I don't think anything has changed with his OW so really nothing has changed with us. He seems like he is perfectly happy with the arrangement we have. All happy to go on his vaca for Christmas. But every once in awhile I see a flash of the old H. I just don't know how long I can wait for him.
Wow paige, sounds like my sitch, except my H rarely looks me in the eyes. My H always seems perfectly content with his arrangement of having a girlfriend, the OW, and me to hang out with once in a while. I too see a flash of the old H once in a while, and that is what has kept me going thus far. I have wanted to give up so many times and like you and I wonder how long I can continue to wait for him.
M:12yr 06/11:IDLYA 07/11:Moves out 08/11:PA disc(began in May) 09/11:Moves w OW 10/11:Breaks up w OW;gets apt 11&12/11: Touchngo w me 1/12: Comes home-PA resumes 2/12: PA disc; PA ends Today: Piecing
Paige, does it matter how long? Why put a time limit upon it? Be sure you’re ready and then move.
I spent so much of myself absorbed in my old relationship that I need time for me now. When I think I am ready I’ll move on. Until then I’ll be where I am living and growing. I am moving forward in a relationship with me.
We find ourselves in relationships with others all our lives; eventually one will be special again.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
I hear what you are saying about how long can you wait. What we are doing is so hard. Give yourself a pat on the back. You are doing this not only for your relationship with your H but also for your kids. 6 months or a year or even 2 years is not a long time over a lifetime. Hang in there!
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
I know you may not believe me, but some day you will. You WILL move past this, you will find happiness again, and that feeling inside of you will not hurt as much.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
Somedays I don't miss H at all and don't want him to come back and then sometimes I really do. Weird how it comes and goes right? I don't want to "date" but I really miss having someone in my life. not sure how to fix that!
