IB - i know it's probably a bit cliche, I want to reach out to say to you it DOES get better. I promise. And I know it's tough and it hurts it feels like those terrible disconnection moments are never going to end. But they will ... they do. I can barely think about the mess I was in when my journey began. All too dark and too painful. Keep writing here. I've been following your thread from the beginning and I want to encourage you as there are posts you make of real joy and real progress. But it is a roller coaster. Expect that and accept it; name it and work through it. And IB, I think you have more of a handle on those feelings than you realize. Well done for coping with such dignity and grace. You're amazing.
