H and i have continued to spend the weekends with the kids at various things and a summary of this weekend is as follows: Friday afternoon we attend son's High School graduation ceremony and follow up with dinner together. H asked if he could spend Christmas Day at home. I've said yes and he's going to cook! Saturday night we attend a party hosted by youngest son's friends parents. A group of about 12 of us. H brought our food contribution and I brought the wine. We stood together all night and, as crazy as it might sound, it was as if the last two years hadn't happened. It was a really fun and lovely night and we seemed improved ... more considerate of each other. We left together and he got in his car and I in mine and went our separate ways at about 1am. The next morning H arrives at son's game at 8am and we stroll the ground together and he stops at a bench and we sit and watch the game away from other parents. We leave at mid-day to both get ready for other son's graduation dinner. We meet at 5 for drinks with other parents and then go onto venue at 7. Friends who haven't seen H for months and months are amazed but very welcoming. So glad I maintained a neutral stance in any discussions I've had with them regarding our separation. It makes everything easier for everyone. Again, it was a lovely evening and H and I even danced together! At midnight we go our separate ways. So, our friendship continues to grow and H clearly feels much more comfortable with me. Thank God. I'm keeping the road home smooth and paved but I have no idea whether H will choose to walk it. I have had a few internal battles with moments of frustration - especially when things are so good. But I know that any pressure will stuff things up. And I'm not even sure he is trying to reconnect. Monday morning here and looking forward to a busy working week and catching up with friends. The kids and I have also got everything ready to decorate the house for Christmas - and i can hardly believe how genuinely looking forward to it I am this year.
