Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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You know what is interesting...a few days ago, I would have said..."Count me in on the spells, I want OW dead!" Today, I saw this comment and just felt like I didn't care. At this moment, my feeling is, she can have H.

I texted H once today about the kids and he asked if we were still on our little road trip. Interesting that he gets to ask the questions but doesn't offer up any information on his trip with OW. I haven't asked a thing about it.

I really feel like for H to get me back, he is going to have to work for it (and I'm not sure he will ever be willing to).

Kind of interesting what one night of fun and attention after 5 months of misery will do to your mind. I would still be willing to get back together with H for the kids...but right now, I'm really disgusted by his actions.

M: 43
H: 45
Married 12 years
PA/EA: August 2011
H still with OW, still in house