IB - you won't understand. That is the way they are. If you try and understand that sort of why, as opposed to what stresses might have prompted the crisis, you will go crazy. Trust me on that.
I have probably read as much as most about why people go into MLC [if anyone really knows] but as to what causes them/or why they shoose to do those crazy things . . . i could tell you toe curling stories about things my xh has done.
Enjoy your life and stop trying to relate to his. You can't because it is crazy. Trying to enter his mad world won't help you deal with the new realit of your life, and it is an illusion to think it will. it is born of frustration at dealing with someone who has changed beyond all recognition.
Acceptance that it is the way it is, is the hardest part.
