Wow paige, sounds like my sitch, except my H rarely looks me in the eyes. My H always seems perfectly content with his arrangement of having a girlfriend, the OW, and me to hang out with once in a while. I too see a flash of the old H once in a while, and that is what has kept me going thus far. I have wanted to give up so many times and like you and I wonder how long I can continue to wait for him.
M:12yr 06/11:IDLYA 07/11:Moves out 08/11:PA disc(began in May) 09/11:Moves w OW 10/11:Breaks up w OW;gets apt 11&12/11: Touchngo w me 1/12: Comes home-PA resumes 2/12: PA disc; PA ends Today: Piecing