Newbie: Is this MLC and how do I GAL?

[Some Day]

Hi Valeska, thanks for asking. I am feeling quite down today. Below are some ramblings of what's on my mind.

So, Friday no contact. Today (Saturday) was the event H invited me to. I made an extra effort to do my hair, makeup, and wore a very flattering outfit. When I met him there, I got a quick hug, but no compliments. We had a little bit of small talk during the event, but I could sense his distance. Afterwards, he asked if i was hungry and we went for a bite to eat. During dinner we had conversation about work, sports, etc. (all safe topics). He avoided looking at me in the eyes the whole time. He was courteous, but it felt like I was having a conversation with my neighbor not my husband.

It hurts me so much to see no emotion in his eyes when he looks at me. There is such a thick wall he has built up. I did my best to be fun, smile, show kindness, etc., but nothing seems to be able to chip away at this wall he has erected to keep me out.
When we parted ways he gave me a quick hug and that was it. This is so different from the man I saw on Monday who was so happy to see me and which I truly felt a connection. Today it was all gone.

Earlier today he was tagged in some photos on Facebook with his girlfriend or whatever she is (this is not the OW, this is someone else he hangs out with). They went out last night to a club to celebrate her birthday. He was all smiles. This hurt. As much as I wanted to bring it up today when i saw him, I didn't. What would that accomplish anyway? It hurts though that our family and friends will see those pics. Up to this point only very few friends/family know that we are separated and fewer know that it is because he left me for OW.

I am beginning to question my sanity. I keep fighting for this man that I love, who does not love me and continues to have contact with OW and with this other woman. Ocassionally he will throw me a bone (send me a text or invite me somewhere) but for the most part he is out of the picture and spends his time with OW and girlfriend.

A handful of times I have seen the H that I married and love and this keeps me going, but most times(like today) it is the cold distant stranger that I see. I am GALing more now and I have cut way down on initiating contact with him. So far, I haven't seen a difference in how he responds to me. It's hot/cold and it is quite unpredictable.

I have felt like walking away so many times, but just when I am about to throw in the towel, something happens that gives me a tiny bit of hope. Today I am feeling rather hopeless and don't see how this situation is going to turn around.