Hi Val, I have been reading your posts and I have to say that you truly are an inspiration. give yourself permission to have a bad day or a bad moment... From reading your posts it sounds like you have made great strides given the crappy hand that you have been dealt, so basically I guess my very unprofessional advice to you would be to let yourself feel however you are feeling and don't kick yourself in the a$$ for it.
Thank you Sunshine for your kind words! You are right.. some days I just need to let myself feel things. Will Stop by your thread soon.
Originally Posted By: westcoastfella
"Stinkin' thinkin'" is indeed hard to stop, but it gets easier with practice, believe me. All you have to do is remind yourself that you can either think about your W and allow yourself to waste your time & energy on her, or you can switch your focus to something else. In a time when we feel most like a victim, you'll find that this simple choice gives you back your power. Every time a thought about my W comes into my head, I think, "No, not going to let her have any control over me anymore," then think about something else. It's freeing.
This makes sense and I don't usually let it get me down. I think with the holidays and the exhaustion.. I didn't have the strength to fight it.
Originally Posted By: 2thepoint
Xena, you sound like you are exhausted. Working 150+ hours will do that to you. It may also explain the emotional state you find yourself in.
I don't disagree with you there.
Originally Posted By: 2thepoint
My point is that it sounds like you were doing your best DB efforts but if you look as exhausted as you sound, you aren't going to win any Sexiest Person Alive awards. And your wife may end up thinking that you look the way you do because of her and not because of the many hours you've been putting in at work.
That's possible but highly unlikely. My w knows what my "filming"exhaustion looks like. I can fall asleep anywhere.
Plus..I was pretty upbeat.It was more that I was having a hard time functioning... than looking like crap. I did still manage to laugh and stuff...
Originally Posted By: 2thepoint
So try to slow down a little and get some rest. You need to get yourself back into Warrior Princess form. :whistle
Absolutely true. I plan on it when I go home for 3 wks. I just needed to work as much as possible.
Getting back to the Warrior Princess form is necessary... although I will keep my blonde hair!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
