I do need to take care of myself. I need to just realize she is gone and not coming back, and that I mean nothing to her. Hard to accept, but accept I must. No other choice.
You're right, about all of it. And realizing what you do is a BIG step in your moving forward and healing. You're at the point where you're tired of the suffering and anguish of heartache. It's a turning point. Once there, you have to make a decision to actively seek to get over this and move forward. Take positive action. No action=no progress. Follow through with the intention to be happy again, and you can emerge from this with more power than ever. I do believe that you can do it.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
