Im just gonna be honest cus really? whats the point of trying to get advice here if im not... I got up this morning and drove by his house to see if OW was there..and of course she was. I KNOW this is stupid...yes I know there is no point in that...i guess I just wanted to know if he was still seeing her and I found out and who feels like crap? me of course. I am causing my own pain at this point and spinning around in what i can only call self pity...(gawd..if 25 sees this she is gonna have a field day!!!!) i know everyone says this and it sounds so cliche..but i feel like this is a bad dream, ill wake up tomorrow and it will be back to normal, were i can just call him and say "hey, lets quit screwing around and fix this thing, we both love each other and our son so lets just stop being hard headed"....then i remember that he doesnt feel that way anymore...and it starts all over again... so today, my son and his friend and I are going to our National Cemetery to lay xmas wreaths on vets graves. doing something for someone else will make me feel better and it should be a great morning. yep..ill just keep saying that over and over........
Me:48 H:42 M: 18 yrs. S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H D bomb: 9/9/11 OW confirmed 10/30/11 D papers filed 11/01/11 S15 S21(Special needs) S28
Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...
