I know...i slept on it and realize this am that it is a horible idea..nothing has changed to make me think he would give a different answer. Its more logical to except that this is over and move on....still trying to figure out how to do that. every day it gets a little easier but this week was a back slide...clinging to much to the text he sent, finding the little notes he had left me...I miss him so much, getting the tree for the first time without him was hard. and watching my S14 suffer threw it was worse...thinking that we are hurting so badly and he is having the time of his life with this girl is killing me so I just have to stop with that thinking.
Hes moved on, he cant show it any plainer then he is...i just wish I knew how he was doing it after 19 yrs...cus I could use some pointers. I guess if I had some studd slobering over me it would be alot easier huh??

Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...