Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

[MynameisMZ]

NB,

A similar thing happened to me recently too. Can't remember where I posted it. I am on a board and there are new and old friends on this board. One man, very handsome and successful was always hanging around after board meetings with my friend from HS and her H. I began to feel really strong pulls towards this man in a very sexual way. I mean I felt SEXY and WANTED.....I ended up leaving these little gatheringS early because I really couldn't handle it. It was so visceral! When I called my friend a few weeks into this I heard her H say in the background, "______ wants to f*&k MZ." They were taunting me, but I knew they had picked up on it. I said. "OMG!" Later his W attended a function and I felt so sorry for her. They had a strained interaction I keenly observed and I just wanted to pull them both aside and "counsel" them on getting re-connected.

I would never hurt another woman the way I've been hurt. You can see how easily it can happen.

Also, this same HS friend cheated on her H years ago, so her H has actually been a good friend/confidant to me. My neighbor is their plumber. My neighbor is CUTE and I always thought, "If something happens to my H, I could marry the neighbor and we could become land barons!" So My friend's H told my neighbor that my H cheated on me. After a church supper he (cute plumber guy)came up to me and said, "MZ I heard what happened and you are a beautiful woman and if I had you, I would cherish you." Well, you can imagine what THAT felt like!

I know, I know sweetheart. Take what you need from that experience to give you what you need, but do not go there....(censored)