DBing against OW...?????

[imthemom]

I dont know whats got me more upset...the text or the fact that on the 19th we very well could be signing D papers...if we agree on everything, which im pretty sure we will..we will sign the papers and it will be done as soon as the 6 month waiting period is over which would be in beginning of May.
I had anxiety attack this morning realizing that. Thinking today that I need to stop wishing and hopeing that this can be fixed. He has made it clear he is not interested. and what other proof do I need then the fact that he is in a whole new relationship. First he called her his "girlfriend" and now he is down playing it by saying he doesnt flaunt her and we will never run into them around town. I dont know what to think..friends say he is giving me mixed signals but I think he is just going back and forth between guilt and anger. either way he has said over and over again, he is done, he wants the divorce and he does not want to work on anything with me. ive never been one who needed to be hit over the head twice....why am i taking it over and over again now???