Pretty much everything you said there could be applied to my sitch. We are very much alike. I realized pretty much all of what was "wrong" with me the first few days she left. She kind of threw some of it in my face and it made me take a long good look at myself. I realized, Wow, this was mostly my fault. Seeing your faults is the first step of fixing them. I made a list of the things, like you did, and with my IC figured out a plan to correct them. I may or may not get a chance to show my W that I am a better person. I look over the list everyday and apply it whenever possible, to whoever possible. Its sad how we don't see the signs that are in front of our face. We all take the little things for granted, but those little things add up and take a toll. I said it once before and I will continue to say it, the book "The Four Agreements" by don Miguel Ruiz really changed me. I have to recomend that book to everyone. If you don't feel like reading the book here is a link to a summary of the book
http://www.humanpotentialunlimited.com/Summary-content.html


M 33
W 29
S 4
M 5
T 7
11/7/11 Separation, W moves in with parents
12/1/11 W: "IDLY, I'm not coming back, it's over"
1/7/12 D Bomb Dropped