Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry this is hitting so hard. You are handling it like a trooper and I understand there are moments when it just feels like it will never end.

It seems to me like his admitting he has treated you badly opened up a lot of the wounds you had been working to heal. Picking a scab doesn't lead to immediate healing. Can you try looking at his apology as an attempt at closure? It may help to stop the spinning in your mind.

Remind me, do you have an individual C still?

T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43
bomb12/4/07
PA5/07
S12/26/07
D final 11/17/08
Back together with no defined R 05/2010
confused....to say the least!!!