Wife left

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W called me last night, she wanted to know if I was off work today (I know I told her 100 times I was), she kept it short and to the point of that, I asked if she happened to make a doctor appointment for S. After we discussed that, I made sure I ended conversation before she could. Today I decided to do my best of getting W out of my mind. I changed my FB profile picture from one of the 2 of us to one of me with S. Also since she changed her relationship status to separated, my relationship status married to: W was no longer linked to her profile, so I just deleted my relationship status. I changed my computer desktop wallpaper and iphone wallpapers from pictures of her to blank. I figure the constant reminders of seeing her pictures aren't doing me any good. I will keep wearing my wedding ring though, I like having that as a reminder of why not to drink. I also did some cleaning in the kitchen and packed up some stuff that I will let her take with her (although she did take enough already). Thanks Edgar (Congrats to you too for staying on the wagon), yesterday was a hard day, was really craving a beer as I am on a 4 day weekend and all the guys at work where talking about going out to a bar after work. I have to admit the people on this board are great and very supportive when it comes to quitting drinking, I have to thank you all. This being a 4 day weekend I will have S the whole time. I know she is off Monday, so I'm wondering how this is going to pan out. If she is going to want to see him (I know I can't make it 2 days without seeing S), or if she will take the opportunity to go party like a rock star. I don't think her partying upsets me as much as her not spending enough time with S. This morning when he woke up first thing he said is "Where's mommy?" Then yesterday I asked him if he had a fun time with mommy while I was at work he said, "No, mommy didn't want to play." As if losing her wasn't heartbreaking enough.