What do I do next? Part 2

[luvhurts49]

I love spending time with my kids. In fact, since my W moved out, I have rededicated myself to my kids. I try to do as much with them as I can. Sometimes this is wrestling around or playing with them on living room floor, while other times it's as simple as sitting together on the couch watching TV. The point is, everyday that I get to spend time with my boys, I try to do something with them and not just sit on the couch and watch TV while they're in their rooms playing by themselves all the time (something that both me a my W were guilty of).

My oldest often complains that when my W has them, she doesn't do anything with them. She makes/buys them dinner and they watch TV while she plays on her phone. He complains that he is always bored while with my W and he doesn't like it there.

Only being able to see my boys half the time has been very hard on me. I'll admit that I haven't always been the greatest dad, but I've always enjoyed seeing my kids everyday. Now that I don't see them everyday, I find myself very sad and depressed when I don't have them. Of course this all leads into whatever happens with the D and facing the very real fact that my W will likely be awarded custody because she is a woman and I will see even less of my boys than I do now.

One of my biggest fears is getting into a huge custody fight. I have no desire to take my kids away from my W. I believe that when she is in her right mind, she is a great mother full of love and compassion, but right now, she is just the opposite. I have no doubts that she loves our kids, but everything she says is just so "me me me" orientated.